I am 34 years old. I don't know if you can help me but I will tell you my story. Someone reliable told me that I am a Lightworker. I am confused. I have old issues that make me feel anger and sadness with people and I have to heal interior wounds that come from being hurt by people in the past and by being sick for a long time (and I do not understand why my life is full of so much pain). Now, I have a big worry about the state of the world, and I care a lot about people's suffering. I feel a great need to help others, despite my being angry of others at times who hurt me. And when I mean angry I mean very angry. But then I help people anyway, anytime I can. I just want Peace and Love for Everyone but I think Human Beings are not very good. I have been spending much time alone thinking of this and a need some help to clear my mind. I have to deal with my wounds, with my anger, my thoughts about the world, and people's suffering within it. About two months ago, I was going to my grandparents house to help my grandmother who is very sick. My grandparent was not good to me, despite that I was doing something good. He was always criticizing me and hurting me. Is this some kind of test for me? What does a Lightworker do in the middle of all of this? What is a Lightworker.? S.
A lightworker is a person that is helping others and the planet to evolve and grow. Their tasks can be as simple as listening to someone and giving kindness in return. Many lightworkers also work the nonphysical world as they sleep. Their consciousness leaves the body and does all sorts of things to help others that could not be done while focused in the body. Lightworkers often think about the state of the world and how they feel it can be helped or elevated to a higher level. This thought too goes out and helps the fabric of humanity.
Lightworkers are at a disadvantage. They are usually kind souls that do not fully understand the ways of the human world. They often get hurt and feel anger and frustration because on an inner level they know what harmony is like and so desperately want to feel it physically. However all they see is greed, selfishness, hatred. Lightworkers are also separated by great distances. As they are in demand and few in numbers, they are sprinkled all over the planet to help each area. So they find it hard to meet similar people as themselves. This can make them feel lonely and disconnected.
To make the journey in flesh easier, lightworkers need to constantly keep their connection to spirit active. Look at it like an open mobile phone signal constantly connecting to spirit. Share your thoughts and desires with spirit and ask it for help when you need it. The Internet is a good tool to find other lightworkers to share ideas with and meet. It helps close the distance between each of you. Many lightworkers use the Internet like a lifeline to their friends and fellow lightworkers.
I am sorry to hear about the situation with your grandmother and that you were hurt by them. Sadly there is not much you can do but try to get past it. I won't say that whatever was said they did not mean, as there is much darkness in many everyday people. Illness and hurt tend to bring that worst part of them out to the surface. It is not right, but you can't let it stop you from doing what makes you feel good. Of course, never tolerate constant physical or emotional abuse. If the situation gets bad, just walk away. There is no shame in realizing that you cannot help everyone, and it will do you more harm than good to stay in some situation where you are not wanted.